I: Innocence

This is done out of alphabetic order as I feel the need to write about this today.  I honestly was kind of proud of my Guenivere post until I found out something devastating last night.

My darling niece has been getting molested by a relative for quite a while.  The whole believing I had a special connection with her is obviously incorrect.  Last post a bit fraudulent.  Flashbacks of finding out my sisters were both victims of our step-brother and I was oblivious.  I was fighting my own battle with our Step-father, but I’m the oldest and should have been watching out for them.  The guilt the last 20 hours have been building.

I keep thinking about her lost innocence.  Something that once lost can never be found again.  The only reason why we know now is because she was afraid she was pregnant, so asked her babysitter about it.  She lost a step-sister due to divorce and was afraid if she told anyone she’d lose a cousin as well.

Innocence is taken so easily from a child.  She will never be the same; our family will not be the same.  She was the only kind-hearted, believer, and open-hearted child of the four and I fear through counseling and this experience that she’ll disappear.  I treasured the innocence in her personality.  8 and still a strong believer in the tooth fairy, Santa, and the wonders of the world.

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5 thoughts on “I: Innocence

  1. James the Greatest says:

    gad, this is horrible. D: I can’t even imagine what that can do to a child. I wasn’t molested until I was an adult — and even then it was rough. it’s got to be nigh impossible for a child.

    is she going to undergo any kind of counseling??

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    • Yeah, it happened to me when I was 14/15 and then again when I was 19 and it caused quite some damage. Hopefully since she’ll be going to counseling and she has a supportive family that she’ll end up being okay. My mom ignored my molestation from my step-dad. He left her, she didn’t kick him out for doing it and such

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  2. Oh my GOSH how said. I know we have never meet but my heart and prayers go out to you and your whole family. And may she find strength in family and friends. Words escape me.

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  3. Stephen Tremp says:

    There must be a special place in Hell reserved for predators of children. Like Bib, my thoughts and prayers go out to you and yours.

    Stephen Tremp
    A to Z Co-host
    Twitter: @StephenTremp

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  4. PrimeLoki says:

    That is absolutely terrible and devastating. My heart goes out to her and to you. The best you can do is be there for her, let her know she’s not alone, and let her know that it’s not her fault. It’s not your fault either, so don’t blame yourself for the evil actions of others. Just be there for her now. Move forward. Heal.

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